Rain and thunder today. How fitting. Today marks the one year anniversary of the death of my favorite cat, CC. She was 13 years old when I lost her. Everything happened so fast and now I can never have her back.
CC was the friendliest, sweetest cat I have ever known. Many mornings I would open my eyes to find her laying on my chest and staring at me, just waiting for her moment to greet me with the softest meow. She loved to follow me around the house, loved attention, loved to snuggle and sleep under the covers at night time. She had the LONGEST fur and it was every where!! I now have some of her fur in a plastic bag. I keep it in a box with her other things.
On my desk is her urn, around my neck a necklace which holds some of her ashes, on my wrist a tattoo of her paw print. Although she is gone, she is all around me and always with me. Other than fish, I never had a pet as a child. Never knew what it was like to lose one for that matter, either. I wanted a cat for as long as I could remember and the very day I moved out on my own, I got my very own cat, Gato. One year later, I got another cat, CC. Two years later I got ANOTHER cat, Kitty. After that I was set. Ha!
CC brought me so much joy and comfort. I miss her dearly and so do my other babies. Especially, Gato.
As I was waking up this morning, I swear I heard her sweet meow. I know it was really Gato, but she sounded JUST like CC. Soft and perfect, sweet and smooth. It made me cry.
As a pet owner for the last 15 years, I have never been disillusioned to the fact that death is inevitable, but no one ever told me just how much losing a pet would hurt and how even a year later, it can still hurt just as badly.
I am thankful for the 13 years I got to share with my little furry love. Today I will visit the lake where I scattered some of her ashes. I haven't been able to bring myself to visit the lake since the day I laid her to rest. But today.....I will.
Saying goodbye to my baby girl....
Rest in peace, CC Cat. Mommy will love you forever and always.